Here i come, moving back from the inner-city crime hole that i live in during term time, to the middle class town which has just voted the BNP in to a seat. Right. Slight contrast. So, this is supposed to be my home yet, i'm finding it increasingly difficult to feel settled. I thought, after a disappointing year at uni in a few different ways, that i would be happier to be amongst people i knew better. Yet walking through Tesco, seeing around 90% of the people i went to school with working in there (ok slight exageration, maybe not that much) i just felt a bit embarrassed. A couple of friends from school i actually made an effort with, acted like they didn't know me anymore, and i was pretty surprised than it stung a bit. I mean, they could barely look away from the obviously incredibly thrilling job of relabelling discount goods to meet my eyes. How Rude! i thought, but then, i realised as i walked away, perhaps they actually don't know me anymore. i gallavant off to uni for half the year and return to find them in the same place, so expect everything to be the same between us...and it just isn't. They've moved on, got jobs and live-in boyfriends. Some even having babies. Babies still creep me out, and i can't think of anything worse at this time in my life. I'm way too young. And there it is - the attitude they don't like me for. I'm still at school, in their eyes, desperately avoiding the "real world" while they're slogging through each and every item on the 'Reduced to Sell' counter.
Hmm, despite trying to understand their points of view, i still sound like I'm taking the piss. Oh well...
Fuck 'em.
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you have hit the nail on the head there, you can understand why people our age who work hard for little pay and even less free time resent students! i dont know if you remember but i had the same problem last year with friends from home, and it sucked, because if you dont feel quite right at uni and or where home used to be, where do you? the best and possibly only thing to do is grit your teeth and make the most of what is still around because friendships slip away too fast.
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